Questions in the darkness

A moment in the darkness.
Just when you held me close in your arms.
I felt it.
I lived the moments which are told in every lovesong.
I was feeling loved

Next minute I was incomplete, confused and afraid.
Was this what I really wanted?
Were you my I-love-you-teddybear?

You left me wondering.
Will I cry tomorrow when you leave?
Will I miss badly your kisses and warm hugs?
Will I be waiting like a madwoman when I hear from you again?
Will I be daydreaming every night when we’ll meet again?
Only tomorrow can tell

Are you a dream I wanted to come true?
Am I your one night stand?
Are we gonna be tomorrow best buddies?
The ocean between us is so huge.

I drown in silence.
Sleep is long way coming for me tonight.
But you’re dreaming about perfect neverneverland.

Slowly the dawn is rising.
My veins filling with dread.
And I fade back to my thoughts.

What will be your first words to me this morning?
What will be my first thought about it?

I don’t know the kid inside me.
She’s screaming like a crazy.
I’m crying like a baby.
Think you could handle this?

Blood flowing.
Heart beating.
And still I feel deadalive.

A touch.
Tender sigh.
You’re awake.

You whisper sweet words to me.
For answer I kiss you.
You feel like beautiful stranger
Maybe I should run away
It’s now or never

My faint memory chains me back to you.
I made promise to you, you made promise to me.
You promised never to leave me “friends or not, it’s for forever”.
I promised to never forget you even if you spooked me away.
But what does it mean?
I don’t believe in eternity?

So now only rain can clean me up.
A storm inside my soul.
Your caring.
Not a good combination yet.
Oh, well our journey is just begun.
Past is enemy.
So future is our only hope.
For now at least.
What kind of will tomorrow be?