it makes me feel....powerful and immensely lonely at times, to be in tune with the universe, like I used to be when I was young

to go back to  a time before adulthood sapped away most of my creative madness

now the rift is open, i will keep it open and pour that insanity, PURE CREATION into my poems, all that is of me and is all mine alone, to ALL that I hold dear, saturating it with my very essence

i am beginning to feel complete

i am reaching my pinnacle, the glistening peak and from there..beyond

this makes me feel good at times

i now understand my parents better, their lives stretch before my minds eye and make me even stronger

i am finally realizing the one reality i needed to find, the closed door i could not open

i will walk inside, unafraid and emerge from a proverbial wormhole into my new domain

where i exist everywhere at the same time

thus ascending

to my righful place

they are all there I think

when the time comes, I will close that door, forever and remain immortal in a place where there is no time, no worries, only energy and essence

not a bad fate

and all of my pain, like a final tear drop, forever frozen, glistening in haunting beauty