oikotie

Today I had a thought
a thought that made me feel sick
and cry
and also it made me feel a bit happy

What if I will be with you
just with you
for all the years that are yet to come?

I don't know how to explain it
and I really don't know what happened
This was never the plan
This was not the future I had in mind

But when I see you
touch you
smell you
When I can draw your bones
and count the spots on your skin
When you hold me
like I've never been held before
When you make me giggle
and make me breath heavily

Then I know
that it's all worth it

Today I had a though
That you're worth crying over for