Tikki

What is it like to be free?
I know it today
But how about a year from now?

I've been torturing myself over and over again
Just to be something else than you thought I was.
I'm now paying the price with the highest interests
Wish I'd know what the total cost was to be.

I don't cry myself to sleep like I used to
Can't even miss the only one
Who stood by me through it all,
Who always told me tomorrow will be different,
Tomorrow I will be better...
Just the way I am and nothing more is needed.

So, all this time...
Was I just using you?