Stuck

It' s just that I collapse
Every time I' m forced to return
To what I couldn' t stand from the beginning.
When there' s no-one to see
Cheeks carry the drops down
And when there' s no-one to hear
I cry out my pain.

Missing you already before I' m gone
Hearing your voices both makes me
Laught aswell as Cry.
Life was long gone before
And just when it was ment to leave the chips behind
You sank into my palms revealing
There was something more after all.

Today I keep you out of my mind
But as there' s a brake
You all somehow sneak back.
As the night gets space from the cold sun
You' re all here and still I can' t reach out for you.
Don' t get me wrong,
Your joy is mine too, aswell as your pain I share.

But one of you is still too far.