Everything I wished for

I kept my dream on my fist,
inside like my heart; guarded and kept safe.
You wouldn't break it again;
I wouldn't let you.

Every time I fought for it
I never loosened my grip from it
cause my dream was everything I had,
everything I wished for.
I wouldn't let you take it away from me,
I couldn't bare it alone.

Each moment held,
every word kept,
close, or far away.
Every deed done,
emotion felt
that you never wanted to know about.

I shouted too long
but you didn't hear.
I dag myself a grave,
cut myself wounds
that never wanted to heal,
never scarred to give me peace.

I remember the moment
when I finally woke up
or maybe I fell asleep;
as the dream, it was just a dream,
a silly one I made for
to protect my heart,
to be loved

but was I ever..