numb

numb feeling around me,
like it wouldn't be real.

I feel nothing

confusion -
no confusion,
what is this

hurt? anger? disappointment?

fear.

and I go through the same moments
again, and again,
and I still don't see the whole picture.

who I thought you would be
has disappeared.
who you are now -
I don't know.

someone too good to be true.

a stranger, someone -
you no longer fit in,

you didn't respect me enough,
you hurt me enough,
to feel like this,
to feel like nothing.

what is your goal now?
you live like there was no yesterday,
like you never let me talk;
didn't care what I felt like.

you live without me, to me,
thinking you can fix this.
or is it already fixed inside your head?

but I'm not that fixable.
I feel broken.