Nimetön

silence
scares the hell out of me
'cos when there's no sounds
I can hear my thoughts better
I don't wanna hear them
nothing what my mind says to me
is something I'd like to know

alone again
why did I let myself to fall here again?
how can anyone sink so fast?

I can't breathe
'cos in the darkness I'm so scared
'they will find me
if I make any sound'

every little voice in here
makes me more and more paranoid
am I just making all this up myself?
is this all just in my mind?

how could I know
when there's no one to trust,
when there's nothing to believe in,
when nothing I had was real?

... everything I had...
what did I even have exactly?
scary thoughts in my mind,
paranoia, insomnia,
addiction, obsession,
no sense at all?

how did I sink so fast?

it's harder and harder to breathe

I'm trying to feel my heart beat
to make sure I'm even alive

I don't even know if I still wanted to be