Speak

I thought that with you
I found out who I am
but I followed too close behind
and I held on too tight
I lost myself in you
and each time you walk away,
I can't find my way back

I run to my phone
every time it beeps
and hate every message
that is not from you
I'm afraid to raise my eyes
when I walk through crowds,
cause I don't want to see you
turn the other way

I wonder if you hear me
crying across the distance
If you can see me
standing behind your door
in my dreams
If you even miss me at all

How can you answer
when I only speak in my heart?
That first move requires a leap
that I can't make
with these legs that crumble down
with every step that I take

I never knew I sang
our future out loud,
that you danced to the words
I now breathe
”You and me,
I can see us dying”
but I still love you more than life