BeautifulLie

It's so cold and dark in my bedroom,
now that you're not around.
I'm so terrified,
just so scared.
Believing blindly in the things I see in my head.
They aren't true,
but they sound like they would be.
It's just this haunting feeling.

It's so cold on your side of the bed.
You haven't slept there for days.
I know you're in warmer bed
with someone who keeps you warm and safe.
But it isn't me
like it should be.
I know there's someone else next to you tonight
when you fall to sleep.
Breathing to your neck.
Keeping you close.
But it isn't me,
it's not me.
Maybe she wants you more than me.

I wish you could come back home.
Come next to me.
Lie down on your side of the bed
where you should be.
Where I thought you'd always be.
But it's all in my head.
I just want to believe
it's all just a bad dream,
that I could just wake up next to you.
Feeling warm and breath to your neck.
Like she does,
like she does.
But I'm not her.
I'm not her anymore.
It's all in my head.