same story

I'm fairly ok with many things
except
wondering days on end
why am I so suddenly
not good enough
while I changed nothing

that's something I
need to get better at
raise my tolerance
if I'm gonna trade it
for a few hours of
starlight with you

every now and then
of course only when
it fits your
emotions
schedule
routines

i n e f f e c t i v e
out of my grasp
out of my control

is this a learning experience

or simply a plan
put together to
make me bleed out

bleed out words at least