Uncertainty

Are you standing there
  because you don't want to leave
   or because this is awkward
Do goodbyes last longer than usual
  because of you
   or because of me
Are we in this moment
  together or apart
Do you laugh at my weirdness
   behind my back
or am I visiting your thoughts
  in other sense

Are you just too kind to say no

I don't know how to read people
  but also
I've been trying to learn all my life
And all this gets me confused as fuck

But I tell you I've been trying to keep cool