Love

How can love make me feel so sick?
I feel like I'm physically ill.
I don't want to eat.
I don't want to drink.
I don't want to do anything else than think of him.
It's so weird and new what I'm feeling right now.
It feels like my body is dying,
but my heart is beating harder.

My mind keeps asking the same old questions over and over again.
I'm not sure what to believe anymore.
Are you real?
Are your feelings too?
I have lost many pieces of my heart
during these wars of love.
And I know for sure,
I'm going to fall so low,
if I have to lose a piece of my heart again.
I don't have much left of my heart
so I may die if I lose this fight.
I just don't know
am I enough strong.

I'm afraid that your feelings
will come up to be just lies.
That you're saying the words I want to hear
without feeling them by yourself.
I don't want to find myself alone and crying again.

I'm so scared.
I don't know, what to feel, what to believe.
Is this all just one of loves tricks.
Have I trusted the love blinded?