On Hold But Still Here

When raindrops wet your hair
Not soaked, just enough to make it curl a bit
The air is still warm
I look at you
I know this is the scene from my dreams
Everything I've ever hoped for
But the second I realise it
The emptiness lurks on the sides
I am happy, by all standards
I smile and you hold me
I just don't feel anything right now
My brain is turned off, no reception
That's ok, I try not to worry
I'll just try again later