Nimetön

I've been waiting for years
for the day I finally feel better
I don't think it's anywhere near
but I write myself these letters
to keep my purpose sincere
If I ever see the end of rainier days

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I hate the way I'm weak
I can't stand myself
but I want to be left alone,
even though I can't get up on my own

I hate way I'm trapped
I can't escape myself
but I want to be left alone
even though I live in a confined cage
called home
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I've been waiting for years
Clinging onto artificial happiness
Listening to the ringing in my ears
mistakes of the past I can't suppress
keep coming back to me in sleep unless
I let someone help me clear this mess

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I hate the way I'm weak
I can't accept myself
but I want to be left alone
even though I can't get up on my own

I hate way I'm trapped
I can't escape myself
but I want to be left alone
even though I live in a confined cage
called home
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I lie in my bed
Thinking maybe I should kill myself
I'm not sure if I can live
when I can't even breathe

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I hate the way I'm weak
I can't love myself
but I want to be left alone
even though I can't get up on my own

I hate way I'm trapped
I can't escape myself
but I want to be left alone
even though I live in a confined cage
called home
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